I open my eyes
To the light coming through the windows
The sound of koels through the trees
Morning traffic running through the streets
I force my lungs into space
Push into verticality from gravity
Search the upswell for a reason
to try again
Today
Another day like yesterday
Start over again
So tomorrow will be better
Put on my gear
Put on my smile
Put on my gig
For time is commodity in the roulette called Life
Lingering there in the shadows
Heavy, looming darkness
Taunting, mocking
Spinning tales
Of un-belonging
Of never being whole
Of never being met
Of being just too much
Darkness says
I’ve been in your dreams
I’ve been in your wake
Time and again you’ve looked away
Now I’m in your head
Now I’m under your skin
Now I’m screaming in your ears
Now let’s see you plead!
In the deafening silence of suffering
The graveyard of hearts, wings clipped
Drenched in the dense cold liquid of fear
Shackled by the rusted chains of wants
Undress your armour of pretend courage
Untether from your longings and heartaches
Put out the fire of your rage
Let it go let it go let it all go!
Let’s plunge … Into the darkness of metamorphosis
A realm dense with void
A playground of pain to revel in
Till there’s no more …
Oh, the relief, the catharsis!
Of never having to care again
Of never having to try to do better
Of never having to seek an-other
But there…in the distance
A glint of an ember
An echo of reason
In the balm of being
Through the dark cold swamp of shadows
I got down on my knees
And offered my mangled heart for keeps
For Love still deserves a place by the light
This post was previously posted on Yogawithdaphne.com on October 30th 2021.
